November
2008
HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY LITTLE MAN
Where do I even begin to start, how can I put my feelings into words. Truly I don’t think I can
What an adventure, a journey like no other. It has been a year of highs and lows, thankfully the highs greatly outnumber the lows.
Here we are 12 months on, you would never think that Ethan was born early or faced the hurdles he did just a short time ago.
Having Ethan has given me a whole new perspective on things, a new understanding on life I guess you could say. I am ever grateful for each and every moment I have with him, with all our children. They truly are a blessing, even when they are driving me insane with fighting/complaining/whinging.
Now we start a whole new year, a whole year that will be full of more firsts, joy, triumph and I am sure there will be some more lows. What family doesn’t have low points!
I know I want to write more but the words just aren’t coming to me, I just want to snuggle up to him and give him a great big kiss. I wish that I could go back and make everything ok, there is no way I could change anything but nor would I want to change one little thing about him. But I am sure people know what I mean. It still hurts that I didn’t get to cuddle my newborn when he was born, that I didn’t get to see him until the day after he was born, that my first cuddle was snuck in on day 4 and it was for a grand total of just 5 minutes.
But that is all in the past, and whilst I know I will never get over it (yes you know who you are out there who tell Mums like myself to get over it!!) but the memories will be overshadowed by all the good things that happen. While they will still be our memories of when Ethan was born they wont hurt so much, the wounds will heal and while there will still be that scar the pain will have gone away a little bit more.
Now for some birthday photos of our little champion
